December 30, 2018
I’ve been overwhelmed.
It’s funny, I feel like I’ve been waiting so long for this chance to be on my own, but I wasn’t prepared for all the setbacks that have come my way.
Things are slowly coming together though, and I’ve been pushing through my anxiety and depression and working on bettering my mindset about things.
Surviving paycheck to paycheck has been a struggle.
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November 26, 2018
I’m a dreamer. I’ve always been. Maybe it’s why I’m so passionate about change but so afraid to embrace it. Uprooting my life has been hard. It’s a change I worked for, busted my ass for – and I know it’s going to work out and things will be okay! – but by God, it’s fucking killing me.
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November 8, 2018
I’ve had so much free time on my hands, I don’t even know what to do with myself right now. Why is it that we have the most time when we don’t have money to do anything?
Netflix and Hulu decided to draw money out of my account at the same time. I wasn’t even thinking, I would’ve been okay, but I spent $12 at Sunoco and with the $20 deducted on top of that? My $15 turned into -$57 after the overdraft fee was added in.
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October 15, 2018
I had my last day of work yesterday. How crazy is that? This job I’ve been at for well over 2 years that’s been stressing me out so much? I finally got myself out. C and I are Pittsburgh bound tomorrow, but there is still so much left to pack and get done. Doesn’t help that I’m sick either.
The last month has felt crazy surreal. The fact that I’m really moving is starting to finally sink in. I’ve been working so much it hasn’t felt real yet. But yesterday I started to pack my room, spending my last day at home. Aside from throwing my clothes in bags, it’s pretty much done and ready to go.
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May 12, 2018
Plan B officially has fucked up my cycle. It’s been a month, and after the random spotting I had for about 2 weeks after I took it, my period is officially late and I know it’s because of taking it. Never again. But because my period is late, I’ve been feeling hormonal lately and it downright sucks.
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April 16, 2018
I’m so happy I’m off today and tomorrow. This past weekend was hell. For starters, it was gorgeous outside – first few days of the season where it was 70 degrees – so, naturally, everyone was buying beer. Which meant that every time I tried to go do something at work, I couldn’t, because we just had people walking in every minute. And when I can’t get things done, it stresses me out. To top it off, my other cashiers requested this weekend off previously. A1 had her softball games, and D and MJ were doing something, I dunno.
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April 6, 2018
I’m tired. So tired. This week has felt forever long, and I’m slacking so much on blogging because honestly, I’m stressed. Work sucks, we keep losing people. Forcing the rest of us to take on more hours and work longer. A1 tried to help me out by taking my shift on Tuesday for me, and then right this morning she told me that I can come in at 12 and she’ll work the morning for me. And then she told me her game got moved to Sunday and asked me to work her shift.
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March 30, 2018
I’ve been all over the place this past week, I missed posting a journal entry on Wednesday even. It’s Friday and this is the first thing I’ve posted all week. Honestly, I’ve just been busier. It’s like, I broke up with Ray, and I’ve been hanging out with C a lot lately.
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February 28, 2018
I left this blog on a sour note after the schedule incident this weekend. The funny part is, later that night, I never had to go up and actually talk to them about it, because C decided to take the matter in his hands, and approached my manager about how I wasn’t given a day off. My manager wound up calling me later that night, I didn’t answer because I didn’t recognize the number. And then I get a phone call 5 minutes later from C, or from his phone at least. When I picked it up, it was my manager and he goes, “Wow, she answered after the first ring, but when I call it goes to voicemail.”
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February 21, 2018
Alright, guys, I’m still a slacking just a bit this week, but this time it’s because I’m so exhausted from work. The last two days have been kind of awful. Monday started with everyone being late and just being behind on everything all day. And then I tried to help by cutting french fries and I lost a screw to the fry cutter…. inside the buckets. Had to go through all 4 buckets that I cut, only to find it in the first one I did (the last one I checked). That should sum up Monday. And yesterday? The first gorgeous day of the year, which meant everyone was coming in to by beer and it made it impossible for me to really get much done. Every time I tried or managed to get half of one thing done, someone was walking through the door. It made me want to not be there so I could enjoy it, too.
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