I think this lack of actually getting a good night’s sleep is starting to get to me. Every annoyance when I’m trying to sleep just aggravates me to the point that I get pissed off. Then I really can’t sleep so I force myself to get up even though I’m still exhausted. I’m starting to wonder if I’ll ever start sleeping well again. I have to wake up at least 2 or 3 times in the middle of the night, even just to use the restroom. And then sometimes it takes me forever to fall back asleep. Technically I think a person my age is supposed to get a solid 10 hours of sleep every night. At the very least, 9 hours.
I might get a good 5 hours of sleep before waking up. I don’t get a full solid night’s sleep, and I honestly can’t remember the last time I had one. Maybe that’s why my body just feels so tired all the time, because no matter what I do, I can’t sleep right. Something has got to give soon, before I lose any more of my sanity. Thank God for coffee, at least that helps liven me up.
Sleep is obviously overrated. Well, for me, anyways. Actually, it’s the thing I want the most, but unfortunately for me, I live in a household where no one cares if I’m trying to sleep. So for the past couple weeks I’ve been sleeping restlessly and waking up with headaches. Coffee helps in the morning, especially expresso, but I really would just love to wake up feeling refreshed for once.
I live with my mom and her boyfriend, and they not only both work at the same store, but they work night shifts together. So they’re used to staying up all night and sleeping during the day. The problem is, they also both think it’s perfectly okay to talk extremely loud and play music all night. And drink. So when I attempt to go to sleep after midnight, I wind up crawling into bed and, naturally, fall asleep for maybe an hour and then I’m awake until they go to sleep. Except I’m so exhausted, all I want to do is sleep, and getting out of bed is out of the question. My frustration will start building, and… then I start to cry because no matter how hard I try, I just can’t sleep. I have an A/C in my room that helps a little. When it kicks on the sound drowns out most of the noise. Then it kicks off after it gets cold enough.
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