Things are supposed to be getting better, not worse. Yesterday was the first day I had off in those 11 days, and I took a lazy day for me. I played D2 all day and the most productive thing I did was go to Wal-Mart. I figured I’d make today a little more productive, and get things back in the groove on this blog and pick up my bullet journal again. Right?
Guys, I’ve been a real slacker lately. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I just feel so unmotivated to do anything. Honestly, I think it has something to do with my period just skipping January. The way my body has been acting the last couple days, I’m thinking I’m going to finally get it soon. Fingers crossed anyways. My period tracker on my phone is saying 15% chance of pregnancy and I really don’t need that kind of negative thinking in my life right now. I really think my body just decided to reset itself from being sick and under stress.
Welcome to February, where I am starting it off not only being sick, but being a complete idiot. I had a few comments that were not spam in my spam folder, and I went to delete the one comment that was spam and…. I deleted them all. It makes me sad, I can’t even get them back. I wanted to cry when I realized I did that. If I haven’t replied to your comments, that is why, and I apologize for that. I hate how WordPress marks the wrong comments as spam. My delirious self also doesn’t know what she’s doing apparently.
January is about to end, and February is rapidly approaching. Time, it really flies. This month wasn’t as great as I was anticipating, but it’s only the first month of the new year, and I spent most of it working. I’ll get there (I hope). I feel like January always kind of is a letdown. I’m just ready for spring already.
You know what? I’m sick of snow. Completely and utterly sick of it. It’s made my life even more hell the past few months than the other shit I have going on. Signing up for 8 am classes was a good idea, because it means I’m done by noon. However, living with someone who hates driving in the snow, not having my license or a vehicle, and constantly having to rely on other people to pick me up or drop me off is reaching it’s limit. And I’ve had to miss quite a few classes already, which has led me to fall behind already. I have a strong feeling I’m going to have to withdraw from my Math class, I’m going on the 4th day I’ve missed and I have an F because I haven’t been there to turn in assignments. I don’t know what else to do. College is not helpful towards those of us who live too far to walk to class. Right now, it’s a white-out outside my window, but my college is still open. My one professor sent my class a message to announce we will still be having class, but he won’t take attendance and to be safe! I have a feeling I’ll be emailing my Math professor, and I’m going to have to discuss my options with her.