I’m a dreamer. I’ve always been. Maybe it’s why I’m so passionate about change but so afraid to embrace it. Uprooting my life has been hard. It’s a change I worked for, busted my ass for – and I know it’s going to work out and things will be okay! – but by God, it’s fucking killing me.
I’ve had so much free time on my hands, I don’t even know what to do with myself right now. Why is it that we have the most time when we don’t have money to do anything?
Netflix and Hulu decided to draw money out of my account at the same time. I wasn’t even thinking, I would’ve been okay, but I spent $12 at Sunoco and with the $20 deducted on top of that? My $15 turned into -$57 after the overdraft fee was added in.
I know I’ve been a little M.I.A. the last 2 months, and I’m sorry for falling off the grid. Life’s been kind of hectic to be honest. It’s like once I spent a week away with C, I started spending all of my time over at his place. And when I’m home? My mom is taking up my time. So between work, my mother, and C, I’ve had my hands full.
I’m tired. So tired. This week has felt forever long, and I’m slacking so much on blogging because honestly, I’m stressed. Work sucks, we keep losing people. Forcing the rest of us to take on more hours and work longer. A1 tried to help me out by taking my shift on Tuesday for me, and then right this morning she told me that I can come in at 12 and she’ll work the morning for me. And then she told me her game got moved to Sunday and asked me to work her shift.
It’s been so. fricking. cold. I can’t stand it. But, it is slightly warmer today, at a whopping -3 degrees right now – with no windchill to make it colder. By the end of the day it’s supposed to get in the 20’s, and next week is supposed to be up in the 30’s, 40’s and even 50’s. Talk about a heatwave after this frigid cold. Better get my shorts ready. Just kidding, I’m still going to be cold. But I am stoked. Let’s keep the frigid temperatures away for the rest of winter, please. I’m sick of wearing so many layers just to walk to work.
You know what’s funny? I applied to a ton of those jobs at the bank, right? That was well over a month ago, going on two months or so. I received an email a couple days ago from someone over at the bank, about that Marketing Internship I applied to. While they’re not interested in me for that position, they’re interested me for another banking position internship. I should be thrilled, right? But it’s for this summer, and the more I think about it, the more I really don’t want to be here. I don’t want to work in a bank, I wanted to before to get out of my current job, but it’s not really what I want to do.
I spent the day cleaning. I feel behind on my blogging, things have been a tad busy the last few days – I fell behind on all of your blogs once again! I’m working on slowly catching up.
Tuesday night I went out with a couple of my coworkers to celebrate two of my coworker’s birthdays. I confess, I drank too much. I had a bud light at the one bar, then we went to our bar (half off drinks everyday), and I had 3 Southern Tier Coffee Pumpking’s. Let me tell you, 8.6% even in an 11oz glass catches up with you very fast (it is good though!). Yesterday was one of the worst hangover’s I’ve had in quite awhile. Work was awful. Thank God I got to leave early.
I think everyone collects at least something. When I was younger, I used to collect receipts. As I got older, I realized how kind of pointless it was, but I liked the idea of remembering a past purchase – what I was doing that night, why I was doing it. I was a kid, so most of my purchases were on candy and junk food, so it really was pointless.
I’m older now, and maybe I should collect certain receipts when it comes to paying them off towards my taxes, but I don’t.
Where do I even start with this one? There are a few changes I need to make, regarding my self and my life.
I need to change my scenery. Work is getting tiring, a lot of the same old with new changes I don’t particularly like. Yet, the bank still has never called me back, and until I get my license, opportunities are slim for something better. So, I’m thinking of asking to serve next door a few days a week. I know I would make decent tips, and I already know the menu. It’s mainly just learning the specials. So we will see. It’s something I’m just considering right now.