This insomnia bullshit is getting in the way of my best sleep. All I do is toss and turn all night trying to get comfortable. Doesn’t work. I can’t fall asleep fast enough and then I get too hot and have to turn again. On top of that, the baby is active a lot more when I’m laying down. While I love feeling him move, it makes it rather hard to get comfortable or fall asleep.
And then, of course, is the stress and not being able to turn my mind off of my thoughts. It’s 3:30 in the morning and I’m stressing over my Monday commute to work already. They’re doing construction on the railroad tracks for the next month, which affects the bus route I take every morning. So my 40 minute commute is now about to turn into an hour or 2 commute because I have to catch the T or a different bus to another station, then wait for the bus I normally catch. But with the detours it’s also going to be a longer ride. How fun.
Have I mentioned how much I already hate my job? My days have been so long already, that this is going to make it so much worse. I don’t know what to do. If one more thing happens to make me hate my job even more difficult I might just scream. It’s not worth it, but I’m stuck.
Like, what can I do? I’m due in October, and I have at least one more good working month left. I can’t afford to quit my job, I need the money too much as well as the insurance. And even if I lucked into another job, I wouldn’t be able to work long or get on the healthcare (if offered) on time.
I could get the free healthcare through the state, like I used to, but I’d probably have more copays and pay more out of pocket. It’s a no win. With my doctors appointments every two weeks now, and my due date rapidly approaching, what can I do?
I need to stop stressing. I wish I could sleep. I’m constantly tired anymore. Things need to turn around soon.
Waking up to pee every couple hours sucks. Waking up to being hungry also really sucks. Having no energy sucks.
I’m not ready for the baby quite yet (although I am excited to meet him), but I am ready to go back to being at my normal body size. Having a growing belly is taking its toll all around. I miss laying on my stomach. And moving without body aches. Pregnancy has made me feel like an old woman 😂
2 months and counting left, wish me luck. This is the final haul and it’s getting to be difficult in more ways everyday.
Going to attempt to sleep again, let’s see how this goes. Have a good night guys.
Two posts in one day? I miss writing that much!