Journal Entry (#23)

February 7, 2018
9:32 AM

Can this weather stop? First, it snows. All night. So right when you think the snow is going to finally melt, we just get it all back. And then, not only does it have to snow more, it rains on top of it. So everything becomes icy and slippy. I’m sick of it. I’m sick of Winter. I’m sick of being sick. Let’s move into Spring already please. Except Spring means allergies…

On the plus side, the antibiotics are definitely starting to work. I haven’t felt the urge to blow my nose every 5 minutes like I used to. It’s still often, but it’s giving my nose time to recover. So, progress! And only 6 more days of no drinking. Can I do this? I have this weekend off and I had been looking forward to going out until then. How else can I enjoy the weekend? I don’t mean to sound like drinking makes everything better, but it’s hard to go out to the bar with friends and not drink. And everyone works during the day. There’s hardly anything to do in this town aside from drink.

On the downside, my period still hasn’t come. 12 days late. If I don’t get one this month I’ll really start freaking out. And I could try taking a test but I really don’t believe I’m pregnant. But it also makes me really nervous. So I really need it to just show up. I don’t want to have to go to the doctor’s. I really don’t.

It’s funny, how even when something is wrong with us, we hate going to the doctor’s office and dealing with it the proper way. So we will just wait and see, and possibly make things worse. Why do we do this to ourselves? I guess it’s just scary to think that it could actually be something that requires us to get checked out. What if it were something we really didn’t want to find out?

Ray’s been so busy with his classes and studying, that even though we talk everyday, it just gets hard. Distance sucks, and when your partner is so busy they’re wrapped up in other things, it’s even worse. I don’t know what else I can really do here other than wait for his load to lighten up. I really want to see him, and it sucks that I highly doubt I’ll see him this month. It just doesn’t feel like it’s in the cards.

I’ve been all over the place lately (what else is new?), I need to get myself grounded and start focusing on what I’m actually doing with my life. That’s what this month is supposed to be about actually. Refocusing, getting my motivation back. Getting back to focusing on my goals and what I need to do to get to the next step.

So here’s to revamping and restarting!

9:46 AM

11 thoughts on “Journal Entry (#23)”

  1. You sound like me. haha Last time I was on antibiotics, I was annoyed because I couldn’t drink too.

    Wow, 12 days is a long time to be late. Before I was on BC, my periods were a bit irregular, but I was never more than 7 days late. Is this common to happen to you? If it doesn’t show up within a couple days, I would take a test just to be sure. You can get cheap ones at the dollar store that work just as good as name brand ones.

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    1. Haha I’ll be happy when I’m off them!

      And it is a long time, it’s a little concerning. I feel like I’ve been this late once before, but it’s not normal. I don’t want to have to take a test but I may have to. I just hope it’s nothing serious and that it was delayed because I was sick.

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  2. I wouldn’t be too worried about the period thing, love!! You’ll get it this month. 🙂 if not… you’ll get it next month! If you do a pregnancy test & you’re not pregnant… I think you are totally fine!
    Hope this month has been going better for you. ❤ Sorry that Ray is so busy!! It does suck when it feels like your partner doesn’t have time for you. I hope his load lightens up soon and so does yours!

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    1. I’m really hoping I get it this month. I haven’t taken a test, haven’t had time to go to the store and I think I’m too nervous and in denial to take one right now. This month has been all over the place for me, I think not having a period is throwing my hormones out of whack.
      And aww thanks, I hope so, too. I just don’t know right now.


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