We’re rapidly approaching February, breezing right through the first month of the new year. Unbelievable really! I felt like I didn’t accomplish as much as I had wanted to this month, which really sucks, but it just gives me a push to get more done in February.
I also had a personal goal list here.
So what are my highs and lows this month?
- I started saving money. As of right now, I have $120, untouched, in my savings account. Wanna know something awesome? It’s all tip money.
- I saw Ray at least once, this past weekend. While it sucks it’s always short lived, at least I still got to see him.
- I managed to organize my room a little. It’s nowhere close to where I wanted to go with it, but it’s hard when you lack the storage space to put everything.
- I did manage to read one book this month. It wasn’t anything amazing, but I did read it.
- I started a bullet journal.
- I’ve been going out about once a week.
- I still haven’t found my birth certificate, which means I’m going to have to spend money to buy a new one. Which I still haven’t done yet.
- I still haven’t bothered creating a new online portfolio.
- Found out I may not get to see Ray all that much in the next two months.
- I have this great guy, and I realized I’m crushing on a coworker.
- I’ve lacked motivation to start a daily workout/yoga.
January was filled with ups and downs. I didn’t feel like I accomplished that much, but I guess I didn’t do as terrible as I thought. I’m working on it, slowly. When it comes to these cold and dreary days, it’s all about starting somewhere. I have so much I still would like to make happen, and I’m hoping February can bring me closer to where I need to be.
This month also made me realize that now, more than ever, I have no clue what I’m doing with my life. Like, honestly, I don’t know what I’m doing with anything. I feel stuck in this endless cycle. Something has got to give, because I can see how people wind up wasting their lives not doing what they love. It’s easy to get sucked into the cycle of responsibilities and a reliable job. It’s scary to embrace the real world and the stink of failure. And money, it’s so hard to start somewhere when you lack it. To those of you who have it, I hope you know how lucky you are.
February is going to be tough because I don’t even know if I’ll get to see Ray, which sucks. This distance thing is making everything even more difficult. But if anything, it’s motivation to get my ass in gear and do something about it. If I’m not happy, I need to strive to change my status. I need to make some moves.
How did you feel about January? Did it start off rough for you, too?
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