January: Highs And Lows

We’re rapidly approaching February, breezing right through the first month of the new year. Unbelievable really! I felt like I didn’t accomplish as much as I had wanted to this month, which really sucks, but it just gives me a push to get more done in February.

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Last month’s Highs and Lows

I also had a personal goal list here.

So what are my highs and lows this month?

Highs:

  • I started saving money. As of right now, I have $120, untouched, in my savings account. Wanna know something awesome? It’s all tip money.
  • I saw Ray at least once, this past weekend. While it sucks it’s always short lived, at least I still got to see him.
  • I managed to organize my room a little. It’s nowhere close to where I wanted to go with it, but it’s hard when you lack the storage space to put everything.
  • I did manage to read one book this month. It wasn’t anything amazing, but I did read it.
  • I started a bullet journal.
  • I’ve been going out about once a week.
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Lows:

  • I still haven’t found my birth certificate, which means I’m going to have to spend money to buy a new one. Which I still haven’t done yet.
  • I still haven’t bothered creating a new online portfolio.
  • Found out I may not get to see Ray all that much in the next two months.
  • I have this great guy, and I realized I’m crushing on a coworker.
  • I’ve lacked motivation to start a daily workout/yoga.

January was filled with ups and downs. I didn’t feel like I accomplished that much, but I guess I didn’t do as terrible as I thought. I’m working on it, slowly. When it comes to these cold and dreary days, it’s all about starting somewhere. I have so much I still would like to make happen, and I’m hoping February can bring me closer to where I need to be.

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This month also made me realize that now, more than ever, I have no clue what I’m doing with my life. Like, honestly, I don’t know what I’m doing with anything. I feel stuck in this endless cycle. Something has got to give, because I can see how people wind up wasting their lives not doing what they love. It’s easy to get sucked into the cycle of responsibilities and a reliable job. It’s scary to embrace the real world and the stink of failure. And money, it’s so hard to start somewhere when you lack it. To those of you who have it, I hope you know how lucky you are.

February is going to be tough because I don’t even know if I’ll get to see Ray, which sucks. This distance thing is making everything even more difficult. But if anything, it’s motivation to get my ass in gear and do something about it. If I’m not happy, I need to strive to change my status. I need to make some moves.

How did you feel about January? Did it start off rough for you, too?


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20 thoughts on “January: Highs And Lows”

    1. I didn’t really think I’d need it until they told me at the DMV I can’t get my permit without it. And apparently it’s a recent change in the laws – my state ID would’ve worked a few months ago. Such a hassle, and I think it’s like $30 for a birth certificate

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  1. I totally agree that if I had a bit more money, I’d feel a lot more comfortable doing whatever I felt like doing haha But your highs do seem really cool and a good start to the year 🙂 especially the savings part! its better than nothing 🙂

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  2. Tip money!!!

    You’ll know this from design – sometimes ideas have to roll around in your brain for a bit before they can come out and turn into something. Progress in life is like that too, sometimes things just have to marinate for a bit before you’re ready to act. Give yourself some space, you’re doing great!

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  3. That’s awesome how much money you have saved. Especially since it’s all tip money! I am so bad at saving…I really need to start doing that, too, lol.
    I’m sorry you never found your birth certificate. 😦 I’ve had to buy mine twice! It sucks.
    You have more highs than lows–that’s always good!
    Just curious…what book did you end up reading this month? & I’m still waiting to see that bullet journal, hehe. 😉
    I hope Feb is better for you!! 💗

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    1. I’m really happy with how I’ve been with my extra money so far, it keeps adding up finally. Haha it’s so easy to just dip into it, the restraint is hard!
      And it does suck! I need to find time to go up to the office. Not sure if I trust the online sites, the one told me up to 6 months basically lmao. I really hope it’s not that long.
      And it was called Behind Closed Doors by B.A Paris
      Haha you’ll see it eventually, I’ve been slacking this last week or so 😂🙈
      And aww thanks! Working on it

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      1. You’ll be able to get that new laptop in no time!! 😀 Or whatever else you were hoping to get with your saved up cash!! ❤
        No way. Do not use the online sites. Since you’re still in the city you live in, you can just go to the office and they give it to you right then & there. You shouldn’t have to wait even a day. 😛
        Omg, I just got Behind Closed Doors on my library app. I can’t wait to read it. My sis just finished reading it and she said it was super good. I’ve heard so many good things about it–I’m surprised you weren’t a fan!

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      2. That’s the first thing I want to get! ☺️ hopefully anyways hahah
        And yeah that’s what makes me iffy about it. I’ll just go uptown, this weather has kind of sucked and I’ve just been too lazy to go before work lol. I have to figure out where the office is, too.
        And ohh really? It wasn’t a bad book, but I guess I was hoping for more lol.

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      3. I’m kind of wanting a laptop, too, so I can sit in bed with it but I don’t need one…it’ll make me more lazy! Haha. 😛
        You can look it up online where the office is. 🙂 It should be easy to get but maybe spendy. I think I paid around $50.
        Dang!! I just read the first two chapters last night and I’m not super into the book yet so we’ll see how I like it later on. Sad to hear that you didn’t full enjoy it!! Ah.

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      4. Hahah that’s a valid reason to get one 😂 I actually need one, a good one, for what I want to get back into (photoshop and stuff).
        And true! My mom knows where it’s at though lol. I hope it’s not $50, it should be around $30 though.
        And that’s kind of how I felt the whole book lol. So I hope you do get into it!

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      5. Yeah, you have a better reason!! It’s for your career… lol I want it to be lazier than I already am! 😛
        I hope it’s not $50 for you to get your birth certificate, either.

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