Journal Entry (#12)

December 27, 2017
9:24 AM

Christmas is finally over! And for once, we had an actual white Christmas, can you believe that? It’s been years since that’s happened. Not gonna lie, I’m a little thrilled that I can go back to saving my money once again. I have a goal – all of my tips are going into my savings account, and I’m going to try my damnedest to make sure I don’t touch it. Fingers crossed this will actually work.

If my mom can land herself a job soon, too, that’d be a big help. It’s not that we can’t afford this house, it’s just hard with her not bringing in that extra income. Their habits are expensive! I know I drink, too, but at least I make sure my bills are paid first.

Work has been… Ever since C made that comment that I kissed him at the Christmas Party, things have been weird. Everyone was saying it happened, and then Alex told me that the reason I didn’t remember it happening is because it never happened. Which I knew, I played that night back over and over again – I would’ve remembered if a kiss would’ve happened! They’re just doing what they do best: fucking with me. Plus, C basically has openly admitted his crush on me, and now everyday he’s just openly flirting with me.

He knows I’m with Ray, and I even told him that it’s never going to happen, but he keeps thinking of the future. I’m not going to lie, it is rather entertaining, because it’s mostly harmless. I’m not flirting back, and now I’m finding myself telling C to do his job and stop looking at me, and then he’ll making kissy faces at me. I’m just like, “Oh God.”

It’s not that he’s a bad looking guy or anything, I just have zero interest because I’m invested in Ray. So to me, it’s not going to happen. Because I want to stay with Ray, and I am relieved that there never was a kiss to tell about. That’s the other thing – I was texting Ray the entire night. I would’ve had so much guilt, drunk or not.

Needless to say, work has been interesting in that sense, but I’m so stoked to finally see Ray this weekend. I’m hoping I can get A3 to come in at 5 on Saturday so I can leave at 5. It’s only an extra hour, hopefully it’s not that big of a deal to her. The sooner I can get ready to see him, the better. It’s been over a month, I really do miss him. I got everything together for his gifts, I just need to find a gift bag for his bottle. If I even have time to track one down, we went to dollar general the other and they didn’t have anything close. I know we used to have one here at the house, but it’s either MIA or got destroyed in the flood. Oh well.

I’m excited in a way, next week starts a brand new year, and it’ll be time to get myself back in the groove of things to find my motivation again. My plans are to focus more on writing (since I’ve been slacking), and I really hope we can find my birth certificate. I pushed it aside with the holidays, but now it’s turning into crunch time.

My mom still makes all this talk about us staying here and then she’ll make talk of us getting closer to Pittsburgh, and I know it’s never going to just happen like I need it to. I don’t know what to do yet. I’m hoping getting my license can help solve some of my issues, and go from there. I want to be in Pittsburgh by this summer…

Oh! I got my first ipsy bag last week. It was a few days late, but I still got it. I was debating doing a review on everything, but may put it off and review next month’s bag instead. I’ve subscribed to both ipsy and Birchbox, and so far I’ve liked the products I’ve received. Ipsy definitely focuses more on the makeup, which I like. Birchbox is more general, I got the curated box for this month which included a free eyelash curler (which to be honest, I’ve never used one before). I don’t think I’ll be doing that for this upcoming month though, I didn’t really want all the products that they showed.

Alright, I need to get myself ready for work. If I start now, I can give myself a few minutes to actually do some of my makeup. It’s funny, I don’t do my makeup half the time because I get so side tracked either writing on here, or reading blogs. Actually, to be honest, I probably won’t have much time to do my makeup, I still have to dry my hair. We’ll see!

9:41 AM

December Writing Challenge #27

8 thoughts on “Journal Entry (#12)”

  1. Nice to hear a little positivity in your post again, Laken!! I hope you find the birth certificate or it isn’t to spendy to get a new one. So excited for you to be able to spend New Year’s with Ray! Hopefully A will be able to come in earlier for you! ❤

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    1. I was feeling a little positive haha. I also got my period Christmas Morning (merry Christmas to me lmao), so I’m feeling a little better. Just trying to fast forward to New Years. Im hoping she will, too, but if not it’s not a huge deal. Thank you 💜☺️

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  2. Glad you liked your ipsy products. I still have to put my glam bag post up for this month, but I got my bag late and then I haven’t had much time to take pictures and get the post up. Hopefully I’ll get around to it tomorrow night.

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    1. There’s only one I haven’t tried yet and it’s nail polish. Everything else I really liked. And good luck! Between work and the holidays it gets hard to find time to get everything done lol. I figure I’ll try to do a post on next months stuff


  3. I can’t believe you had a white Christmas! Lucky you! ❄
    I hope your mum finds a job soon and eases of the pressure.
    I’m rooting for you and Ray 😁🙌 Some people are just idiots 🙄
    Good luck for the year ahead; Wishing you all the best ☺☺💕

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    1. It’s been years! I was actually happy to have some snow (and for it to snow) on Christmas ☺️
      And thank you, me too!
      And aww thanks haha, and yeah I know this 😂
      And aww thanks so much, same to you hun! 💜

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