November: Highs And Lows

Another month down, one more to go. November wasn’t too bad, but I don’t think I accomplished as much as I had hoped to accomplish. The holidays tend to do that, not to mention my work schedule has been all over the place. But hey, we hired a new girl, and are hiring one more for weekends (because my manager said he hired her so I can spend weekends with Ray – legit only reason for that). I’m feeling a little more optimistic now, 2018 is going to be filled with some changes.

Last month’s Highs and Lows

I also had a personal goal list here.

So what are some highs and lows of the month?

Highs:

-I was able to help my mom get the house a little organized.
-I bought Ray something for his birthday, and spent the weekend after it with him.
-I at least bought Ray something for Christmas.
-I went out a couple of times with my friends.
-I started up the daily Black and White photos
-My uncle offered to help me find an entry level job in the city. I just have to update my resume and portfolio to send to him. Fingers crossed.

Lows:

-Money has started getting tight this month.
-I bought an item off of eBay the other day, only to get an email saying the account was hacked by a third party user, so they removed the item. My information was safe, but I still got charged and lost $20. Fuck.
-I only got to see Ray once this month. Again. 
-I still have not gotten my license, permit, or gone driving. I had plans to try today, but was too tired from yesterday. Hoping to go next week, though.
-I still have to do my Christmas shopping. Money has been tighter with my mom losing her job, and I’m still not sure what to get her yet.
-I never got into serving like I wanted to, gave up on asking because my hours have been shit.
-I still have to update my health information. I tried to update it the one day, but couldn’t get the links on the website to work.

November has more lows than highs, but it could have been worse. The end of the year is always more busy than anything. Back in college, it was always stressing to get everything done, plus focus on the holidays. Now it’s stress over work and the holidays and finding time to get everything done. Which seems to get harder and harder to do.

Yesterday, on my day off, we managed to get the house looking a lot better. Most of the stuff went into the spare bedrooms for now, but it opened so much space in the kitchen and dining room. I forgot how nice it was to not have boxes in the middle of the floor. The next step is setting up for the holidays, we still have to decorate the tree yet. I’m off Friday, and I think we’re going to bake some cookies. Hopefully should be a good day.

My one friend who lives in Pittsburgh, he texted me the other day and said he had a question for me. The question was – would I want to move in with him and his girlfriend and their other friend down there in May or June? I really want to, so badly. I have so much fun down there with them, and he offered to help get me on my feet and established. Between that and my Uncle offering to help me find a job, it’d be a great start.

The drawback, is, of course, my mother. Who is still insistent on me finding a place to move to, so she can eventually follow me to get herself established. While it’s considerably better than what we have now, I feel like once I get on my own, it’s going to be so hard to have her move back in with me. Because at that point? It’ll be my place, not hers. So her dumb rules that she has for me now (like a curfew at 2am – seriously, she bitched me out the other day because I came home at 2:30am), they won’t matter if it’s my place, right? I just don’t know what’s going to happen, and it makes it hard for me to start my life up. Because… what if Ray and I are still together and want to move in together? I wouldn’t have him move in with me with her there. That’s just dumb.

I don’t know what’s going to happen in the upcoming months. December, I have some goals, but it’s mostly getting through the holidays. After that, it should be a little easier to focus on my big time goals. I’m just so ready for change already, I need it here. I’m hoping I can spend New Year’s with Ray, right now that’s the plan. I just need a guarantee I have New Year’s Eve off (we’re closed New Year’s Day), and for the weather to be on my side. I’m so nervous with how nice it’s been lately, we might get hit hard and I really would be devastated. He can’t drive up to see me with 10 feet of snow outside. I mean, he could, but I really wouldn’t expect that. A 2 hour drive would turn into 4 hours and it wouldn’t be worth it.

So long, November!

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13 thoughts on “November: Highs And Lows”

  1. Aw, how sweet of your manager to hire someone just for you to have more time with Ray. ❤ and I warned you about eBay lol that’s exactly what happened to me but they didn’t e-mail me or reassure me that my info was safe lol.

    I really do think you should move out there with your friend, his gf, and another person. Especially since your Uncle is offering to help you, too. Please go! You will be so happy. Your mom can follow you but why….is she moving back in with you?? She needs to figure our her own life so you can figure out yours! She wants to coddle and control you for her whole life…it really seems that way to me. She obviously loves you and doesn’t like to worry about you but a curfew? Really? You’re 24!

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    1. That’s how I feel! It’s actually making me want to stay with them until I do get ready to leave here. He’s understanding about the fact I’m not staying there forever lol. And I know! I knew the deal was too good to be true, but I fell for it anyways. Lesson learned 🙈

      I’m really thinking about it! I know I’d be so happy – at least to start off there. I can always find somewhere else down the road. And I feel it’s because she doesn’t know how to get herself on her feet. It just makes me very… unsure. I don’t like leaving her, but she needs to make her own decisions, too. I want to be able for us to visit each other and spend time that way, but living with each other is a bit much anymore. We clash so much on things. And yeah the curfew thing has me rolling my eyes every time because her reasoning is… “I want my house settled by 2am, I don’t want people coming home after that hour and disturbing the peace.” But her boyfriend leaves the house at 5am for work… so… I’m not that noisy 🙈 her logic never made sense to me

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      1. I mean, if you’re leaving soon there’s no point in trying to find a new job in that area! Just focus on searching for one in Pittsburgh. 🙂 Hahaha, I think the deal I was trying to get was like a $10 super fluffy winter coat…so that was definitely too good to be true too LOL.

        I know you love her so much but you are two separate humans with two different paths. She will only find hers when you force her to and she will lean on you as long as you let her!

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      2. That’s kind of what I’m looking at, too! And that’s the plan haha. So we will see! And ohh yeah definitely for sure lol. Mine was slightly worse now that I’m thinking about it. It was a 50mm lens for my Nikon – usually runs around $80-$100 (around that range) but I found one for $20. Definitely a dumb move on my part lol.

        That’s what I’m trying to focus on, I really am. But then she turns things around on me and I get so unsure of everything. It’s hard. I wish she could just be okay with it and let it be, but it’s like her situation depends on me and I don’t know where to go with it. I know what I want, but it’s just hard with her expectations.

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      3. Hahaha that’s how I feel about the Wish app! Everything is just too good to be true. Have you tried it yet?

        I wish you didn’t have to deal with all that with your mom. You deserve to live your own life. ❤

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      4. Hahah true! And no I haven’t! I actually found similar items on eBay so I’m just not sure about trying it. I don’t like waiting a month or two for stuff 😂

        And thank you! I wish I didn’t either, but maybe things will work out.

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