November 17th, 2017
I’m off to a late start today. There’s really no call for it either, I’ve technically been up since 7:30 this morning. Not intentionally, I woke up to use the restroom and couldn’t fall back asleep. I tried, I kept laying in bed, but when it hit 9:00 am I forced myself to get out of bed.
Last night I had every intention to actually do something today before Ray came to pick me up, but I’m not going to do too much. I’m all packed already (aside from my everyday things), and I might do a few things (unload the dishwasher, clean out the cat boxes, sweep the floor), but nothing that’s going to take me more than maybe 15 minutes. LOL. I’m being lazy today.
Speaking of Ray, though, still not sure what time he’s picking me up yet. I’m hoping he leaves in the next hour or so, I don’t want to wait until 6pm to see him (like what happened last time – by the time we got to his place it was almost 8pm). I’m losing him for a couple hours tomorrow night for his frat formal thing (I’m not mad he forgot to invite me, I was annoyed at first, but he really is forgetful, so I think he would’ve if he could’ve got me a ticket in time). My friend never got back to me about hanging out tomorrow night while he’s at that, so I may try to hit him up again. If not, the idea of just hanging out by myself for a couple hours – without being bothered – is actually not that terrible. I’m just bummed I lose some time with him when we don’t have that much (which is why he needs to leave sooner rather than later lol).
I’m so happy to have three days off from work, too. I dunno, I’ve just gotten to that place again where I’m stressed by it the moment I walk in. It seemed like everyday this week something was going on. My drawers were off in the mornings quite a few times, and the one day the closing guy left me $80 in 20’s, no 5’s, and $2 in 1’s to start the day with. Our drawers are always at $110 after we make a drop (so we always start at that amount). So obviously, you want 5’s and 1’s in your drawer, not a bunch of 20’s. Just dumb things like that.
Apparently last weekend my one cashier (let’s call her I), she somehow got chipotle mayo and chipotle ranch mixed up when filling up the bottles, so we had to throw a lot of that away. The funny part is, it’s really not that hard to tell the difference. For starters, Chipotle mayo is on the front line because it’s a condiment. Chipotle ranch is in with the dressings – because it’s a dressing. One is thick, one is thin. And also… it’s called reading labels. It’s really not that hard. This place makes my head hurt.
I’m about ready for a new job. The chances of me serving at this point feel slim to none, I need to talk to them about it but the point almost feels moot. It’s just going to be me and A over break as cashiers, which means my hours aren’t going to change at all – but Friday’s and Saturday’s in December are apparently not allowed to be requested off now. I get that we don’t have that many people because most are going home for winter break, but come on. I wanted to request New Year’s Eve off so I could try to spend it with Ray (and get rid of last year’s memory). It’s just annoying. I just don’t even want to be in this town anymore. Everything here sucks these days.
If anything, my growing hate for my job makes me want to motivate a little more. I need to get my permit as soon as I can, so I can start driving. The sooner I get my license, the sooner I can make some changes. I want the money, but I don’t want to keep being stressed all the time. There are perks to my job, but at the same time, I’m constantly in stress the moment we get busy at work. Why is it that everyone comes in at the same exact time? The phone goes off when 5 people walk in the store. And do I get help? Rarely. The kitchen is getting lit up with tickets and they’re more concerned with that, so I start stressing. Especially when we get busy like that and people leave their shit on their table and leave. Because I don’t have time to drop what I’m doing to clean it up. And that drives me insane. But after the rush or before the rush? We’re dead as fuck. I hate how it works like that. It also makes me really not want to be here around St. Patty’s Day because the campus up here has their own drinking weekend that’s just awful. Homecoming is bad, but this is so much worse. That’s sometime in March, and I really really do not want to be here for that again.
There’s just a lot of things I want to make changes on. I don’t know what I’m doing yet, just feeling all over the place. I just know something needs to happen soon.
Thanksgiving is also next week and I feel so ill prepared. I’m beyond stoked I’m seeing Ray this weekend, but I also realize I have no time to do anything to help for the holiday – working 10:30-7pm everyday makes it hard. I still have to get gifts planned out, too. So much to do, not enough time. Because it’s going to come up and come up fast! The holidays always do.
Anyways, I think I should go get myself motivated to get some things done. Ray still hasn’t texted me back. Boo. He’s not the best texter though, and that’s fine. I just need to know what time he’s leaving. It’s hard to plan things out without knowing when I need to be ready by. The last time he did this I got nervous and that deep part of my brain gets worried he won’t show up one of these weekends lol. I know it’s silly. Alright, time to go do some basic cleaning to act like I was somewhat productive before my mother shows up.
Also, if I’ve fallen behind on your blogs, I apologize! I’m learning it’s getting harder to keep up with everyone’s posts everyday with the more people I follow. I try to, but it gets hard! I will catch up soon though!
As a side note, I realized for my last journal entry I spelled “November 9rd” – I’m about to edit that, but my inner grammar nazi is screaming at me for not catching that. LOL. How did that even happen? I guess if I copied and pasted the previous entry (the 3rd), but I can’t believe I didn’t catch that until now. Whoops
November Writing Challenge #17