Fall (#15)

It’s finally starting to feel like fall time. The leaves have mostly fallen and changed color, and the weather is a mix of too hot and still cold. 

And everything is adding up. This time of year is always rough. Everything is due at the same time, money is always tight despite trying to save. I love the holidays, it just sucks that it seems things are always happening this time of year. And not in a good way.

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Halloween is in a few weeks, and they have Christmas stuff set up already. Why? I know this is a market scheme, but it legit makes me sick to my stomach that they can’t even let you enjoy your current holiday. I’ll worry about fucking Christmas in November like most people, okay? And by November, I mean after Thanksgiving. Which they’ve also taken a holiday where you’re supposed to be thankful, and moved Black Friday to Thanksgiving night. On a Thursday. It’s called Black Friday for a reason. It’s just sickening. Anything to get people to spend more money they don’t have.

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I love the Fall, but it always feel short lived. The warm days start to disappear, and then suddenly it’s cold all the time. It makes it hard to enjoy the season. Because I’m dreading Winter. The idea of snow and cold right now makes me tense. I’m not ready for it. 

Add into the mix that there is less than three months left of the year. We’re already approaching 2018 rapidly. How bizarre is it that the start of the year moves slow, but the ending of it speeds up. Every time for the holidays. It’s why Christmas just sneaks up on you. You’re hit with holiday after holiday and then you get a break. 

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There are things I wish I could’ve gotten to do this year. I’ve never been to a pumpkin patch, and I’ve never been to a haunted house. I was hoping I could drag Ray somewhere with me, but I won’t get to see him until the end of the month, and it’s going to get too cold, and most of these things will be over anyways. It makes me nervous thinking about the weather because if it gets bad, I won’t be able to see him. And the idea of requesting a weekend off to see him and not being able to is going to really suck. But it amazes me he’s still stuck by with me despite it being over a month gap since I’ve seen him. The back of my mind keeps reminding me we’re less than two weeks away now. It’s flown by, Thank God. 

I’m at that time of year where my mind is in overdrive trying to think of everything I want to and need to accomplish before the year is over. So, naturally, I’ve been slacking on other things I wanted to do. My motivation is weakening. About the only thing I’ve been consistent with is posting daily blog posts. My creativity is drained, though, once more. And I realized, for the billionth time, that a lot of it is work. I love the people, hate the job anymore. I keep saying I don’t want to do it, and I don’t. I’m ready for change in the worst way. But the bank hasn’t called me back, and I’m about ready to give up on that option. Yet, there’s not much else I can do until I get my license. I think getting that and a vehicle would help improve my life by a lot. 

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This post is getting a little long winded. The theme was to write about Fall, and I originally wanted to get creative, but instead, I got lazy and wrote what I always do.

October Writing Challenge #15 

8 thoughts on “Fall (#15)”

  1. Ahh, I know what you mean about the holidays piling up on us so quickly…it’s so hard. I’m so glad that I’ve moved away this year so I’ve got the best excuse to excuse myself from the holidays with my family. haha

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    1. It really is hard! It comes so fast, too. And haha well there’s one way of just focusing on you and your boy this year (: big get togethers can be overwhelming anyways! And so much money if you bought everyone something

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      1. big get togethers are always overwhelming from me and i have 4 little brothers and one older sister so i felt like i had to get them all something and my dad always says he hates cheap shit lol so i’ve always had to spend so much and now i don’t have to hehe…

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      2. Ohh yeah I can definitely imagine that’d get hard to do every year! Because there’s this expectation you get everything for your immediate family at the very least lol. Distance helps you save money 😂

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      3. Yeah my family would say that immediate families can decide how gifts go for their kids and then for the adults we’d do secret Santa. But yeah since I’m all the way over here—I have the best excuse to not participate in any of it. 🙂

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