There are quite a few bad habits I’ve been good at maintaining. I mean, everyone has a few, don’t they? It’s something you don’t realize you’re doing sometimes, and other times it’s just something out of habit. A bad habit.
I bite my nails.
It’s a terrible habit. I’ve tried kicking it a number of times, but the only way I don’t really do it, is when my nails are painted. Which kind of sucks, because I’ve been too tired and unmotivated to paint my nails in awhile. They’re not in good shape, and I’d like to work on it. It’s kind of hard to maintain with my job regardless, because carrying stuff and folding pizza boxes does a number on my nails itself.
I’ve been wearing my last pair of contacts…. all year.
This is even worse. And maybe not so much of a habit as a necessity. You’re only supposed to wear these contacts for a month or two. I’ve been making these things last because I just haven’t had time to schedule an eye appointment. And I’ve had issues with my health insurance, and I want to go back to my main eye doctor – who will only accept my insurance with a referrer from my doctor. So that sucks. Another thing I need to get on this month. Even if I have to go to Wal-Mart. I refuse to wear my glasses 24/7 because I hate working with them on.
I have let people push me over.
For me, I hate conflict. I hate confronting people, and I hate that feeling of tension. So, I will let things slide when I shouldn’t. I’ve let people use me and it’s something I’ve been working on. These days, I have more of a voice. And I’m going to continue using that voice because this is a bad habit, and I deserve better than that.
I will sit in bed all day doing nothing but watching Netflix to get out of doing stuff I need to around the house.
Basically, I am a terrible procrastinator. And if you have been following me, you might have picked up on that. Hell, I don’t even have my license yet and it’s something I need. I made the excuse this week that I’ve been too tired to call the doctor’s office early in the morning, and I mean, honestly, it’s been too late to call them once I get home from work. But I need to get on it and get over it. It also leads me to…
I hate making phone calls.
Not just any phone call – I can call my mom or a close friend and that’s fine (however, I won’t call unless I know it’s a good time because I hate to be bothersome). However, making phone calls to the doctor or to get something related to my bills – I will hold that shit off until I can’t hold it off anymore. I am terrible. Even as a kid, I would hate being on the phone. When texting became a thing, I took a hold of that. Instant messaging on the computer, even email – I preferred that to talking on the phone. And that’s still the case. Unless I’m close with you, and that’s the only time I feel comfortable.
I don’t like vegetables.
This one is the epitome of most kids out there, but I just never grew to like them. And that’s partially on my mom letting me get away with it just so I would eat something. In the end, I’d always win despite her efforts. Now that I’m an adult, it’s catching up to me, and my unhealthy eating habits do need to change. All these foods I’ve never tried and never given a chance, I know I need to. It’s mind over matter. But I’m terrible with that first step, and I feel I’m going to have to make myself change up my eating habits soon, because health wise – it’s terrible. Always loved fruits, but they’re only so healthy for you. I always told myself that if I was on my own I would’ve changed my eating habits by now because I’d be more willing to try new things if I was by myself. But who knows?
I have wasted countless nights being upset I was by myself, yet too tired to try going out and meeting up with people.
This year I have worked more on this. I hate spending a lot of time alone these days. Don’t get me wrong, I love my me-time, but I hate being stuck at home and feeling like I could be out and enjoying myself. There have been a few times I’ve passed up chances because it was raining or I was too tired, but I had the money. Even still, going out for a drink or two with the coworkers is enough for me. Temporary friends are better than none, at least for now.
I struggle to save money.
It feels like every time I start to make headway on saving my money, I have to use it on food or to pay off a bill. Or, you know, I splurge, say “fuck it,” and buy myself a Wii U and some games because I wanted something new and treated myself. I don’t regret it, but I had almost $300 saved that I’ve spent. Now I’m back at the start, and it’s a slow process because my extra money has been spent in Pittsburgh or on food. Sometimes at work, people tip me, and this is the extra money I save. I’ve also started collecting change and just leaving it in a change jar at home (mostly silver). I can make anywhere from $5-$20 extra in one week (on top of my normal pay, I’m not a waitress, I don’t rely on tips). So I can bring in quite a bit extra to save, if I can just keep my hands out of it. That’s something I’m working on. For everything I want, I really do need to save. A car, a laptop, lenses for my camera, a new bed (mattress, sheets, frame, etc), new dressers, etc. It’s not cheap.
I don’t smoke cigarettes, but I do drink.
I’m not the worst drinker, or an alcoholic, but I have been drinking a lot more these days. It’s not the best habit, but it helps me unwind after work, and I do like discovering new beers. However, it’s a bad way to spend money, and I’ve been buying more lately. So it’s something I need to work on cutting back on.
I spend a lot of money on take-out.
Take-out food is the easiest way to spend money – I mean, we all have to eat. And who feels like cooking after work? I surely do not. However, I need to find ways to cut back on spending and start looking to have food in the house to attempt to cook. Another thing I’d probably do more of if I was on my own, but I’m not so I need to deal with it. Take-out is also terrible for you, and I need to start watching out for my health. It probably does not help that I’ve mainly been eating once a day as well, and usually it’s some kind of leftover pizza or fast food…
My worst habits include wasting my days off, and I want to start making myself do something I feel accomplished of. It’s okay to have a lazy day here and there, but I’m over the all the time thing. This month, I need to focus on bettering myself and getting my act together.
We’re already through the first week of September, and I haven’t made a move yet. I think I need to start making some weekly goals. Work sucks, I know, but I have got to get past this because now is the time to make moves before the weather starts to get worse. Plus, I won’t have Ray to distract me this month (mind you, he’s a terrific distraction).
Between maintaining this blog, I want to get back into reading as well, and I’ve started to work on reading Game of Thrones so we will see how long that takes me to finish.
My weekly goal from now to next week is going to include: cleaning up a little around the house (and especially my bedroom – it’s a disaster), read half of Game of Thrones, finish Twin Peaks (before my free Showtime on Hulu expires), and especially – call and set up a doctor’s appointment! This is the first step to getting my act together.
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