My Worst Habits

There are quite a few bad habits I’ve been good at maintaining. I mean, everyone has a few, don’t they? It’s something you don’t realize you’re doing sometimes, and other times it’s just something out of habit. A bad habit.

I bite my nails.

It’s a terrible habit. I’ve tried kicking it a number of times, but the only way I don’t really do it, is when my nails are painted. Which kind of sucks, because I’ve been too tired and unmotivated to paint my nails in awhile. They’re not in good shape, and I’d like to work on it. It’s kind of hard to maintain with my job regardless, because carrying stuff and folding pizza boxes does a number on my nails itself.

I’ve been wearing my last pair of contacts…. all year.

This is even worse. And maybe not so much of a habit as a necessity. You’re only supposed to wear these contacts for a month or two. I’ve been making these things last because I just haven’t had time to schedule an eye appointment. And I’ve had issues with my health insurance, and I want to go back to my main eye doctor – who will only accept my insurance with a referrer from my doctor. So that sucks. Another thing I need to get on this month. Even if I have to go to Wal-Mart. I refuse to wear my glasses 24/7 because I hate working with them on.

I have let people push me over.

For me, I hate conflict. I hate confronting people, and I hate that feeling of tension. So, I will let things slide when I shouldn’t. I’ve let people use me and it’s something I’ve been working on. These days, I have more of a voice. And I’m going to continue using that voice because this is a bad habit, and I deserve better than that.

I will sit in bed all day doing nothing but watching Netflix to get out of doing stuff I need to around the house.

Basically, I am a terrible procrastinator. And if you have been following me, you might have picked up on that. Hell, I don’t even have my license yet and it’s something I need. I made the excuse this week that I’ve been too tired to call the doctor’s office early in the morning, and I mean, honestly, it’s been too late to call them once I get home from work. But I need to get on it and get over it. It also leads me to…

I hate making phone calls.

Not just any phone call – I can call my mom or a close friend and that’s fine (however, I won’t call unless I know it’s a good time because I hate to be bothersome). However, making phone calls to the doctor or to get something related to my bills – I will hold that shit off until I can’t hold it off anymore. I am terrible. Even as a kid, I would hate being on the phone. When texting became a thing, I took a hold of that. Instant messaging on the computer, even email – I preferred that to talking on the phone. And that’s still the case. Unless I’m close with you, and that’s the only time I feel comfortable.

I don’t like vegetables.

This one is the epitome of most kids out there, but I just never grew to like them. And that’s partially on my mom letting me get away with it just so I would eat something. In the end, I’d always win despite her efforts. Now that I’m an adult, it’s catching up to me, and my unhealthy eating habits do need to change. All these foods I’ve never tried and never given a chance, I know I need to. It’s mind over matter. But I’m terrible with that first step, and I feel I’m going to have to make myself change up my eating habits soon, because health wise – it’s terrible. Always loved fruits, but they’re only so healthy for you. I always told myself that if I was on my own I would’ve changed my eating habits by now because I’d be more willing to try new things if I was by myself. But who knows?

I have wasted countless nights being upset I was by myself, yet too tired to try going out and meeting up with people.

This year I have worked more on this. I hate spending a lot of time alone these days. Don’t get me wrong, I love my me-time, but I hate being stuck at home and feeling like I could be out and enjoying myself. There have been a few times I’ve passed up chances because it was raining or I was too tired, but I had the money. Even still, going out for a drink or two with the coworkers is enough for me. Temporary friends are better than none, at least for now.

I struggle to save money.

It feels like every time I start to make headway on saving my money, I have to use it on food or to pay off a bill. Or, you know, I splurge, say “fuck it,” and buy myself a Wii U and some games because I wanted something new and treated myself. I don’t regret it, but I had almost $300 saved that I’ve spent. Now I’m back at the start, and it’s a slow process because my extra money has been spent in Pittsburgh or on food. Sometimes at work, people tip me, and this is the extra money I save. I’ve also started collecting change and just leaving it in a change jar at home (mostly silver). I can make anywhere from $5-$20 extra in one week (on top of my normal pay, I’m not a waitress, I don’t rely on tips). So I can bring in quite a bit extra to save, if I can just keep my hands out of it. That’s something I’m working on. For everything I want, I really do need to save. A car, a laptop, lenses for my camera, a new bed (mattress, sheets, frame, etc), new dressers, etc. It’s not cheap.

I don’t smoke cigarettes, but I do drink.

I’m not the worst drinker, or an alcoholic, but I have been drinking a lot more these days. It’s not the best habit, but it helps me unwind after work, and I do like discovering new beers. However, it’s a bad way to spend money, and I’ve been buying more lately. So it’s something I need to work on cutting back on.

I spend a lot of money on take-out.

Take-out food is the easiest way to spend money – I mean, we all have to eat. And who feels like cooking after work? I surely do not. However, I need to find ways to cut back on spending and start looking to have food in the house to attempt to cook. Another thing I’d probably do more of if I was on my own, but I’m not so I need to deal with it. Take-out is also terrible for you, and I need to start watching out for my health. It probably does not help that I’ve mainly been eating once a day as well, and usually it’s some kind of leftover pizza or fast food…

My worst habits include wasting my days off, and I want to start making myself do something I feel accomplished of. It’s okay to have a lazy day here and there, but I’m over the all the time thing. This month, I need to focus on bettering myself and getting my act together.

We’re already through the first week of September, and I haven’t made a move yet. I think I need to start making some weekly goals. Work sucks, I know, but I have got to get past this because now is the time to make moves before the weather starts to get worse. Plus, I won’t have Ray to distract me this month (mind you, he’s a terrific distraction).

Between maintaining this blog, I want to get back into reading as well, and I’ve started to work on reading Game of Thrones so we will see how long that takes me to finish.

My weekly goal from now to next week is going to include: cleaning up a little around the house (and especially my bedroom – it’s a disaster), read half of Game of Thrones, finish Twin Peaks (before my free Showtime on Hulu expires), and especially – call and set up a doctor’s appointment! This is the first step to getting my act together.
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11 thoughts on “My Worst Habits”

  1. Oh my, how long have you been wearing your contacts?? Mine are one monthers too and they get less clear and more dry towards the end of the month. I just had to order more too, and they were expensive but Walmart is where I ordered them and I don’t have a vision plan on my health insurance so I went to America’s Best for my prescription but I told them “no” to buying contacts from them and asked the doc to write me a prescription on paper and brought it to Walmart. It’s the cheapest, quicker route. And before you do anything else I’d suggest you you do that because I’ve read horror stories about eye infections and such from wearing them longer than they’re intended for. Or just wear your glasses for a bit? I’m sure you look adorable in them. 😊

    I’m with you on so many of the other things though! I struggle to save money too, HATE making
    Phone calls, and I always lay around to avoid housework and my whole apartment is a disaster lol my boyfriend cleans it when he has time but I messy things up so quickly…lol.

    Oh and did you know your taste buds change every 7 years of your life?? So maybe you do like some veggies now! πŸ˜› Some of them are yummy!

    I didn’t even know GoT was a book lol I’ve heard so much about the show but I’ve never even seen one episode. Hope you enjoy reading the books! πŸ’–

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    1. Since the beginning of the year πŸ˜… but I don’t sleep in them and I let them soak for awhile in solution and rub them out, so they’re still clear, just a little drier (but not as bad as they could be). And I’m going to try to get it sorted out this month because it’s long overdue and I know I shouldn’t be wearing them this long lol. I wear my glasses around the house and if I’m not going anywhere that important (like Walmart). Haha I don’t look awful with glasses, I just don’t like the limited vision and the extra weight on my nose πŸ˜‚

      The phone call thing is my biggest downfall! I’m forcing myself to call my doctor on Tuesday πŸ˜‚ like no ands, ifs, or buts. And ohh no! Haha. I actually had today off and cleaned, but I have to be motivated to clean or it’s a struggle!

      And ohh I think I’ve heard something like that before! I know I’ve broadened my tastes with certain things lol, like different meats and stuff. So maybe I do need to just force myself to try new veggies πŸ˜‚ I like corn, but that’s about it. I think it’s the texture with some.

      And ohh really? It started out as a book series (: came out in the late 90s! And GoT is something you either love or just can’t get into. And it’s a binge worthy show – as in once you start you’re in it for the long haul. But now there’s a 2 year wait on the final season (I call bullshit lol), so I want to read the books if I can! And thank you πŸ™‚


      1. I hope you do get it sorted it out this month. I feel ya though, my glasses often give me a headache because they’re too heavy on my nose.

        Ugh, I hate phone calls!! Sometimes there are doctors who let you schedule appointments online. πŸ˜›

        There were so many things I thought I hated but re-tried and liked. I’m 22 so I def believe my taste buds just changed last year.

        A 2 year wait?? Damn! I would not be a happy viewer if I was one lol.

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      2. Me too! And yes, so do mine! It’s why I don’t like wearing them all the time lol. Especially in the summer when I start to sweat, too. Makes it worse!

        And I wish I could get lucky with a doctor who did that haha!

        I’ll definitely have to give it a whirl and try things out. It’s just making that first step because my brain is wired to be like “no, no, no.” Haha

        And I know!! It’s like a year and a half technically. I think it’s the beginning of 2018. But still ridiculous! And it’s only 8 episodes so I don’t know why we have to wait so long lol. The show used to have 10, and this is the final season. So annoying! Haha

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      3. Yeah I like wearing contacts over glasses definitely but if i wear glasses I don’t have to take them out before I get comfy into bed lol.

        lol sometimes when I need to go for an appointment, I choose a place solely because you can make appointments online. πŸ˜‚

        Try some veggies!! Your body needs ’em! Do you like baby carrots and ranch??

        It seems like the only thing people make memes about these days lol. Is it super fantasy-ish?

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      4. Haha that’s definitely a good point! But I normally take them out the minute I get home. And only put them back in if I decide to go out that night lol.

        And that’s hilarious πŸ˜‚ and totally something I would do. But I feel nervous even making appointments online unless I know it’s a legit thing that they would check.

        And I know I need to! And I don’t eat them πŸ˜‚ even ranch I don’t really eat either (which is crazy because I might like veggies more if I dipped them in ranch).

        Haha it’s definitely one of the most popular. And I wouldn’t say super fantasy-ish. Lord of the rings is more fantasy. But there are dragons and very slight magic. It’s more battle and medieval-ish fantasy

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      5. lol usually online appointment places will send you like a confirmation text or email! It really is so much easier than phone calls!

        I love ranch!! Especially baby carrots with ranch. Try it! πŸ˜›

        Aaahh, I’m tempted to start watching it!!

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      6. I’ve never scheduled one so I’ll take your word for it haha.

        And haha I’ll have to πŸ˜‚

        And give it a whirl if you can! You might like it πŸ™‚ it’s easy to get addicted to it haha. Just don’t get attached to characters

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  2. I don’t like answering phone calls before, too. I would always want to communicate through email or text! Haha. But lately, my “fear” of answering the phone is gone and I actually prefer it now because conversation really is easier.

    Hope you achieve all your goals! I’m rooting for you, girl!

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    1. That’s exactly how I used to be! I still prefer those ways, but I’m also getting over my “fear” or anxiety of answering the phone, because like you said, it’s a lot easier to talk that way sometimes.

      And thank you so much!


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