Some of us spend a lot of time downgrading ourselves, that sometimes we need to remind ourselves of the good stuff. Things that you’re proud of that make you, well, you. So here are three things about my personality that I’m proud of:
1.) I’m Responsible
I don’t know if it’s that it’s been embedded into the back of my brain since I was a kid, or if I’m just genetically like this, but I’m always the responsible one. I never let my bills get out of hand, I’m a stickler with money (even though I’m broke half the time thanks to bills). When I go out to a bar or a party, I always know where my stuff is. I either keep an eye on it, or I keep it on me the entire night. Especially my purse – that’s the last thing I’d ever want to lose. I don’t want to be one of those frantic people calling multiple places the next day, “I think I left my card there…” Even if I get myself really drunk (or like the night I got myself really high off this edible chocolate), I won’t forget my stuff.
2.) I’m Loyal
I may not have that many friends, but those who have stuck by me through the years, I’m loyal to. Even new friends I make, I stick by them until we start to fade away. Still, even if our friendship fades, I’m always going to be there if you need me. I don’t care if we haven’t talked in five years, if we were ever close and you really need a friend right now, I’m there. My best friend lives a state away, and her and I still keep in close contact and know what’s going on in each others lives. We may not talk everyday, but I know if I really needed to talk she’d pick the phone up for me. Those are the kinds of friendships I value, and the kind of friend I am. The same can be said for relationships – if I commit to you, you’re it. I’m not talking to anyone else or risking the relationship. I don’t believe in that, and I’m faithful. I could never hurt someone like that.
3.) I’m One of a Kind
I’ve always had the quiet, reserved type of personality, but the last few years I’ve grown out of my shell. While I’ve always been the type who could basically fit in anywhere, now it’s even more so true. The moment I start to get comfortable with someone, I open up. People don’t expect that most times. I go from this girl who’s shy and respectful to telling you to fuck off if you’re trying your luck. If you’re being an ass, I’ll tell you.
I’m not like most people. Yes, I can fit in almost anywhere, but I don’t necessarily feel like I belong just anywhere. It’s rare for me to find those people I can truly be myself with. So I spend a lot of days alone. But I like myself. Which took many years to really reach. I’ve broken out of my shell, and I know what I’m after in life.
I don’t need to be accepted by everyone out there – there’s a lot of terrible people anyways. I don’t want to do something because everyone else is doing it; I want to do it because I want to do it. It’s that simple. I don’t want to be like everyone else. It’s overrated. When I was a kid, I felt like I needed to be. Now that I’m older, I couldn’t care less. Who cares? I’d rather just keep being me.
When it comes down to it, I’m happy with who I am these days. I have a lot more confidence than I used to. I can look in the mirror and accept myself (mostly). Sure, there are those days I’ll be staring at myself and think that it’s as good as it’s going to get. My hair’s a mess and I’m no professional when it comes to make-up (and I don’t spend more than 5 minutes most days). But I’m me.
Maybe it’s the amount of people who have told me I’m pretty over the years, and I’ve just finally accepted that sure, some days I can be. It starts with out you see yourself, and over time, you build up that confidence. Whether it’s your personality or your outer features, start finding something that you’re happy with. I like my hazel eyes, I have a dot of dark brown on one of them that kind of makes me feel unique. I wish my hair was thicker some days, but at least I don’t have to spend hours de-tangling my hair. I wish my stomach was flatter, but that’s really on me because I love pizza and terrible things. But I’ve lost weight and I walk almost 10,000 steps daily (mostly from work), so at least I’m active.
Confidence starts with yourself, and even my personality, I’ve reached that point I’m happy with the person I’ve become. Maybe not entirely, but I’m getting there. The day my situation changes, I think I’ll start to truly feel free. I’m a free-spirit who’s spent many days feeling trapped, that taste of freedom just enough to get me motivated to break free.
What’s one thing you’re truly proud of yourself for being?