I’m finally done with my workweek, only feels like forever somedays! But I get tomorrow and Wednesday off and I’m stoked. Tonight isn’t going to be a long post – to be honest my brain gets fried at work and it’s why my posts are bland some days. On the plus side, I promised myself I’d write – and I’m sticking with it.
I’m not going to make excuses not to write, I gave myself the option of writing about anything as long as I’m consistent – and that’s what I’m going to continue doing.
I’m excited because I finally get to see my boy tomorrow after not seeing him for almost 2 weeks. It’s kind of funny though, distance sucks, but we’re making it work. To me that’s amazing in itself. Because it’s so hard to find a guy willing to commit himself (especially in my town, a college town), but I think I might have finally lucked out.
We’ve been dating for a couple months now, but we haven’t really talked about making it official. To be honest, I don’t want to rush into talking to him about it because I’m enjoying what we are now. He takes me on dates, we’ve gone out of town together, I come over – we act like we’re in a relationship. And I feel positive that he’s genuine, so I don’t feel the need to pressure him into declaring himself my boyfriend or meeting my mother. I talked to him about meeting my coworker’s (they joke that I’m making him up) and he’s alright with that – and to me that’s a big step in itself. He also agreed to go to a wedding with me. And spend my birthday together.
I guess I’m afraid that if I approach the subject, then this thing that we are, it’s going to get weird. Maybe because this is my experience with guys. I don’t know how to act around a guy, that I’m starting to become crazy about, confesses that he really likes me, too. He doesn’t give me butterflies or make my heart race like some guys have, but there is something else there that I haven’t quite placed. I feel comfortable with him, safe with him, and I really do like him – a lot. And I know if we keep this up I’ll fall in love with him. I’m already at the point I miss him as soon as he drives off. Love is weird.
All I know is I’ve been waiting for the next two days for over a week and I’m so happy I get to see him tomorrow and get out of town. I’m going to try to write something tomorrow before I leave. Gotta keep my streak of writing alive!